Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Repeating Myself- Restating earlier thoughts

I have come to realize that the connections between human beings is a very powerful and profound thing. Especially the connections I feel towards those I love. Which is why I fight for what is right. That is why I am trying to right the wrongs of my recent past. Because the people who I have been torn from are beautiful in themselves. And I know in my heart that we met for a reason. People come and go, but every so often I feel a tug on some invisible string. Like we were meant to have a friendship. Like my conscience is telling me. Treasure them, because they are good people, which is a rare thing in today's world of selfishness and swollen egos. And so right now. I fight. Stripping away my pride and taking whatever humiliation comes with these battles. I am sure I am thought annoying, persistent, arrogant, and crazy. But I do it because I believe. All we have is each other. And if we abandon each other at the first sign of trouble then all is lost. Whatever tears us apart can only make us stronger in the end. If we forgive and realize. We are all humans. Driven by uncontrollable emotions. Driven by needs and other basic desires. But we must not forget. Even amongst the uneasiness, the moments of cold emotions, and hatred, once there was respect, friendship, and most importantly love on some level. And I am willing to face the harshness of these other people who are blinded by these dark emotions. Who do not want anything to do with me whether it is my fault, their fault, or a collection of the two. I will continue to fight, and attempt to reestablish what once was and is no more. Before it fully fades into the shadows of time. That is my mission. That is my pledge. To all I love. God bless those who are still with me. And those who have left me. I can only hope and pray. That we all see that it is simply a poison. Deep within. That prohibits the forgiveness and reunion of good people.

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