An Interview: Conducted by angrybarcode

So this is my first interview. I really enjoyed this. I'd like to thank Angrybarcode for taking the time to ask these questions. And I am happy to have another reader.

Please check her blog out at the link right below this, it is a very good read if I say so myself.

angrybarcode

Ok, here's your five questions and instructions to post with your answers.
Instructions First:
1. Leave me a comment saying "Interview me."
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I get to pick the
questions.
3. You will update your blog with a post containing your answers to the
questions. And a link to my profile or blog as your interviewer.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone
else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five
questions.

Now Questions:

1. I have to start by saying that I am a fairly new reader and I really have enjoyed your blog thus far. You describe your blog as "pure emotion." Staying on that train of thought, which emotion do you think is stronger, love or anger? Which one is easier to write about?

Love and anger are two incredibly strong emotions, no doubt. But, I’d have to say that love is definitely stronger than anger. The problem however isn’t that people don’t know which is stronger, but knowing how to recognize and utilize love. If one can do that with respect and even a bit of blind faith, love is strong enough to change the world for the better (not saying that anger can’t change the world, it definitely can, but in a negative way and who’d want that?). As for the second part to this question, love is definitely easier to write about whether it is love of life or a person. All of my writing flows from a loved source. If you read my entry titles Sweet Inspiration, you may realize I am acknowledging the love that I have for my creative source and that it makes my mental gears move smoothly. Didn’t someone once say that behind every artist there is the love for a woman? It is a half-truth perhaps, but one that feels very true to the core.

2. While perusing some of your older posts, I got the strong sense that you are a very empathetic person. Have you always been naturally concerned and involved with others, or is this a reflection of your understanding of pain due to your own struggles?

I’d have to say it’s both. I have always been someone people talked to, but I never always really related it to my own pain and struggles. That is something that has surfaced within the past 3 years. My life has been incredibly painful, and I think understanding that pain has elevated my empathy to a whole other level. Pain can be a beautiful thing is understood correctly. Instead of cursing my pain I understand that there are people out there who have it worse. So I use the pain to drive myself. I could cry rivers into oceans, but I take my tears and feed them into good vibes. I have learned to dance in the rain and this is a great understanding of life in general.

3. From personal experience, I know that being an idealist in the modern world can break your heart many times over. What keeps you from being crushed by the gravity of disappointment and sadness?

I was sitting down with some friends over some drinks and we were discussing this very matter. It boils down to this, “I plant the seeds in your soul. Then I tend to the garden.” The world is an ugly place, a very ugly cruel place. But, one can’t lose faith in the people around them. Gandhi said you must be the change you wish to see in the world. So I take this change and I simply try to surround myself with good people and people who are trying to better themselves through positive progression. Mankind is sick, very sick, but there are good people, if you make it a priority to link up with these good people then nothing will ever crush you. All we have is each other, we are all brothers. Besides, it’s like they say, there is beauty even amongst the ugliest of things. For all the disappointment and sadness there is hope and happiness. One just needs to know where to look. It all ties back into one of my favorite sayings, “Learn how to dance in the rain.”

4. Sometimes, in order to get to a place of evolution, especially in personal relationships, we have to make huge mistakes. Unfortunately, they are usually at the expense of lovers we wrong, or people we hurt. Being such an empathetic person, was there a time where you were careless with someone? What did/would you say to that person?

Definitely, I have hurt people, recently I make an effort not to do it on purpose, we are all human. As for your second question I am simply going to quote an older entry (It’s a bit long so forgive me). It was written for a situation where I had hurt actually not one, but two loved ones. I actually posted this on my blog and they happened to read it and called me as soon as they did, so it must have struck a chord.

“I have come to realize that the connection between human beings is a very powerful and profound thing. Especially the connections I feel towards those I love. Which is why I fight for what is right. That is why I am trying to right the wrongs of my recent past. Because the people who I have been torn from are beautiful in themselves. And I know in my heart that we met for a reason. People come and go, but every so often I feel a tug on some invisible string. Like we were meant to have a friendship. Like my conscience is telling me. Treasure them, because they are good people, which is a rare thing in today's world of selfishness and swollen egos. And so right now. I fight. Stripping away my pride and taking whatever humiliation comes with these battles. I am sure I am thought annoying, persistent, arrogant, and crazy. But I do it because I believe. All we have is each other. And if we abandon each other at the first sign of trouble then all is lost. Whatever tears us apart can only make us stronger in the end. If we forgive and realize. We are all humans. Driven by uncontrollable emotions. Driven by needs and other basic desires. But we must not forget. Even amongst the uneasiness, the moments of cold emotions, and hatred, once there was respect, friendship, and most importantly love on a certain level. And I am willing to face the harshness of these other people who are blinded by these dark emotions. Who do not want anything to do with me whether it is my fault, their fault, or a collection of the two. I will continue to fight, and attempt to reestablish what once was and is no more. Before it fully fades into the shadows of time. That is my mission. That is my pledge. To all I love. God bless those who are still with me. And those who have left me. I can only hope and pray. That we all see that it is simply a poison. Deep within. That prohibits the forgiveness and reunion of good people.”

5. Do you think God cries, or do you think there’s something (s)he sees that we're not aware of? Do you think it's possible that suffering has a purpose, or is it more like a disease?

First I must say that I believe in God, but not in religion. I believe we were created in some way shape or form. Maybe it was intentional (in the biblical sense) or maybe it was an accident (evolution), but something started it all. However, I also believe that God does not meddle in our everyday affairs and is not here to favor any one religious ideal. They say God is great, so if that is the case then God should be greater than anyone belief, because at the core of it all, they all follow basic human moral principles. Now, to actually answer the question, I think that God cries. I think he weeps daily. I mean wouldn’t you? To see this creation, this beautiful creation (mankind), sit here and destroy not only ourselves, but the planet upon which we were placed. We as a species are capable of so many great things, and yes, we have done great things, but the negatives far outweigh the bad. Look at the world today. I think God cries with a deep seeded sorrow for a failed creation that continues to blind itself instead of enlighten. I think suffering is of our own creation. I think that mankind created suffering, and maybe it was a necessary creation so that we would understand each other and the beauty of the world we live in. However, I think it was simply ignored instead of addressed, and it was altered from something that should have helped us better ourselves, into a disease that is everywhere you look. I mean I see all this unnecessary suffering and I simply hear John Lennon singing Imagine. Maybe one day the dream will become reality, but until then… I have no idea…

I'd once again like to thank angrybarcode for taking the time to ask the questions. I enjoyed answering them. God bless, and peace and respect.